Hello Diary #1

Dear Diary,
I was interviewed last Saturday by my friend Parul and her friends for her college MIT Avantika(Big thankyou btw!). It was great! I think I love talking in-front of camera and it really went great. I was hoping they'd get in depth with me and my life but we only talked about Artworks and my philosophies behind it and that's it.

Razor Cut song is near completion, although I really cant finish it - the chorus and in-between transition parts - making them sound good is beyond my abilities. I wonder what I'll do. The rap part is great and as usual I vented out, again.
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I am irritated about my life right now. most recent is my frustration towards friendship. I do not have as many of the type of friends I want. I do not have the life I want and I am becoming more and more firm in my decision to quit Art once I am done with last of my paintings. I would like to focus on music for a little while whenever I finish the pieces. I'll focus on living life. 

Mom's birthday was yesterday and man was she jolly! She looks to get younger and younger with time. I love her. I really do. I am not sure why I mask it. I presented her my frustration towards my life in Indore but now I think I might not actually want the life I talk about, otherwise I'd be out doing something by now. Maybe I am just too scared and already given up on my dreams, being more realistic.

​And Oh! I have finished Sapiens by Yuval Noah Harari by the way. Yes! It had been an amazing, lengthy and super insightful read. It's time to buy a new book. 

That's it for now

- Aastikya